Let Go and Let God

So... pregnant.  Anyone else surprised? 

I asked my ob/gyn if he thought we needed to try to rush baby #2 given my medical situation.  He felt that it wasn't as urgent as before, but it was hard to know for sure. 

I had a hard time imagining having another child so soon.  However, Cody is the oldest of 4 boys (all within 6 years of each other).  He loved growing up with brothers all so close in age and he wanted our kids to be close together in age. 

Cody was ready, I didn't think I was.  I said it absolutely could not happen until after I took my PT licensure exam, passed it, and started working.  I was so sick when I was pregnant with Caden that I didn't think I could handle being pregnant and studying for the most important test of my life.  Plus I really needed to have an income before taking on another child.  I agreed to start trying after that.

The weekend of July 4th approached, and I got the feeling I needed to take a pregnancy test.  Cody just laughed at me thinking I had just convinced myself I was pregnant for no reason.  The test came back negative, and I enjoyed a few beers by the pool over the weekend.

Tuesday rolled around and I was a day late.  I told Cody I wasn't going to take another test.  He laughed at me again and asked why I didn't believe the first one.  It was negative.  This time Cody just shook his head and said, "told you". 

By Wednesday morning I was now 2 days late.  I was surprised by this and for some reason looked into the trash can at yesterdays pregnancy test.  Positive.  WHAT?!?  How does that even happen?  I didn't really think it could be true.  But, it was strange enough that I decided to take another test that night while Cody was in the shower.  I didn't even tell him I was taking it this time.  Positive. 

How did I break the news to Cody?  I interrupted his shower and show him the test.  I made him apologize and tell me I wasn't crazy after all. :) I had so many emotions going.... I was excited for this blessing, but I thinking about how I was going to get through my test, start a new career, and where in our 1000 sq. ft house we were going to fit another child and all the things that come with him/her.  Cody just couldn't quit smiling, and I love him for that.

The initial shock then wore off and I knew this was perfect.  You can't plan life.  Life just happens and you take it and enjoy it.  I have learned to trust God and that his plan is far better than any plans I have.  Caden is my daily reminder of this. 

Just 3 years ago I would have said you were out of your mind if you would have told me this is where I would be right now in my life (kids, living in Wichita Falls, working at an outpatient orthopedic PT clinic, trailer house at the grain bins?).  

So yes, I'm a little nervous for all the changes I have coming in the next year.  My friends tease me and tell me that I would be so bored if my life wasn't a little bit crazy.  It's not what most people would call ideal timing, but I know it's perfect for me!